In the Darkness

I’ve been mulling over words all morning. Warning, this will have foul language, and raw emotions. It’s political. Witchcraft is political, sorry not sorry.

After I had a cry, and then I raged to my Gods and Goddesses (not blaming them, mind you, but sharing how I felt and why I was afraid in the most truthful and honest ways), I went to bed.

Every time I woke up, my mind screamed it didn’t want to wake. I was restless too, so I woke up a lot.

I had to explain to my daughters that a huge chunk of our country hated women, and minorities, and that’s why a convicted felon was now president.

I’ve had to think about what happens next.

As a Pagan woman and practicing witch, will they come burn me at the stake?

As a mother of two daughters, what will I be forced to watch my daughters endure?

As a mother of LGBTQ kids, and Aunt to LGBTQ kids, what will I be forced to watch my children, nieces and nephews endure?

As the wife to a professor, when will the come for my husband?

How long before there’s “camps” to deal with the unwanted, “deviants” and undesirable?

What happens to our world, when all the work we’ve done to try to protect it is overturned in the name of greed?

Will I ever vote again? Will my children ever get a chance to vote?

What happens now???

If you don’t get that, well, I guess you are damn lucky to be so blissful in your ignorance, and in your ability to be one with the hivemind. Maybe it’s what you want, maybe you think America will be in a better place without us.

Election Spread

I did an oracle reading before the election. I didn’t share it because well…it was depressing. But, there was a glimmer of something in it that I think I will share now. I did a 5 card spread, my usual weekly outlook. I followed with a single draw- election results.

1. What will my energy be like this week?

   Reverse Frog- sit and await change and transformation as it’s coming without force.

2. What challenges will face?

   Ancestors- I honestly took this to mean the past, and not just my ancestors.

3. How can I overcome those challenges?

   Reverse Third Harvest- Be better prepared, learn both skills and studying the situation. Don’t act impulsively.

4. What lesson will I learn this week?

   Reverse Owl- Discretion, being mindful of balance and not to rush.

5. Advice from my guides.

   Reverse Ritual- don’t go into autopilot, feel deeply. Let intention and intuition guide.

6. Election Results.

   Greet the Darkness- My cards are hilarious at times. I wrote at the time in my journal “…that’s not funny. I hope that doesn’t mean what I think it does, but it probably does. Well, fuck. Ok then, it also means shadow work and all that good stuff…”

I also think, it was telling me that my feelings were valid. I’m not a light worker, I don’t do this love and light stuff. I have and always will embrace my darkness. It’s a part of me. It’s a part of us all and denying it does nothing.

Every dark, angry thought is valid.

It’s ok to rage. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to hate those that want to harm you. It’s ok to be angry at the ignorance and stupidity. And it’s ok to tell anyone telling you to “move on”, “be a better person”, “respect others” and “choose love, happiness” or whatever sappy emotions makes them feel better to fuck right off. No deep offense intended, just do what makes you happy and leave me alone.

These feelings are normal.

And we’ll fight. I’m blessed to live in NY where the voters approved an amendment to the state constitution to protect reproductive rights and gender affirming care. What happens when NY and the Federal government clash? I don’t know. I can’t imagine NY just rolling over.

We can stand together.

And we’ll fight. We’re already exhausted, so use this time to rest. And remember to rest when needed, to step away and take care of yourself over the next 4 years. You don’t need to be a warrior 24/7.

And we’ll fight because I’m not just moving on, not when women are dying. We’ve already seen in Texas what abortion bans are doing. Texas is on it’s way to having the maternal mortality rate of a third world country, despite having the technology and medical means to SAVE LIVES.

Pray to your Gods and Goddesses. Practice your magick, up your protections and wards. Be prepared. Take care of those in your community that stand with you. Don’t feel regret for cutting out those that voted against your life- they made that choice. Actions speak louder than words.

And it’s ok if you take some time to mourn. This loss stung. When you try to believe that good can overcome evil, and it doesn’t (yet), it’s a blow. So, whatever you do this weekend to survive and work your way through your emotions, do it without guilt. Be in the moment, embrace the authenticity of who you are.

Will it be ok? Damned if I know. It’s not my place to tell you that. My place is to listen, and let you know that what you feel and experience is valid.

I will say…The Morrigan has been gathering strong people for years. And maybe now we know why. The question is will you be ready to fight for your beliefs?

Over the next few days and weeks, months and years, I will offer as much support as I can. Watch my IG and FB.

Stay strong. Stay Safe. Take care of yourself, and those you love.